剛剛那一通電話,我一個字都沒說過。
是知道自己錯了呢?還是在猶豫要說什麼來回應你?
其實,是我不想給你回應。
也許你不懂,我真的,真的很脆弱。
也許你不懂,一點點錯誤的字眼都會傷害到我。
也許你不懂,我經歷了那麼多,依然還是害怕另一半語氣重吧。
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感覺到【眼睛】腫腫的,【心】是沉重的,【手】在顫抖的,【淚】在打滾中。。。
我知道,其實我連【對不起】都沒有資格說。
原來,可笑的是我。
原來,我在傷害你。
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你知道吧?其實解釋好累,可是每一次遇到什麽事情我都會向另一半解釋。
可是怎麼對你,在那種狀況的時候,我卻不解釋呢?
其實我想對你說,我在意的,是你信息來的內容。
你誤以為,我真的在生氣你不讓我去。
其實我沒有,我真的沒有。
我說你誤解我,是在說“那今晚不用WEB了”。
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是我,傷害你多點。
是我,一次又一次的在傷害你。
是我,因為愛玩,所以只要你不給我就不爽就發脾氣。
是我,不顧你的感受。
是我,太在意朋友。
是我,對待人太好。
是我,良心大過天。
是我,無法控制自己不對朋友不好。
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爲什麽你打來的第二次,可以變成好像什麽事都沒有發生過一樣?
你越是這樣,我越不覺得開心。
我根本就開心不了。
剛剛一句一句的實話,其實正在重重的打進我的心。
這 ... 你不懂吧?呵呵。
很抱歉,我不能裝作沒事。我沒有那個能力,SORRY。